I am haunted by nightmares

I see the glass shattering on the street while I go to the German class this morning. Suddenly, I can remember my nightmare in detail last night. I suddenly realize that it has kept giving me nightmares for several days. What have happened on me? I am worried about everything again. Besides, the nightmares revive my memories of childhood. I have told myself that I forgive him for one hundred times over. However, the truth is that my subconscious doesn’t forget it.

My cousin, suffering from Attention Deficit and Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD), and I are like oil and water. He is just senior to me by one year. Hence, we have a lot of arguments while we are young. One day, he is out of his control and insane to ambush me. All of a sudden, while I arrive at home, he throws a tray which is intended to keep the hot soup from touching the surface of the desk into my face. I am bleeding all over on my face. I can’t remember anything, and I heard the sound of ambulance. I am lying down on the bed in the operating room. After being anesthetized, I fall asleep. Things go well, and the stitches are perfect on it. Things have passed for a long time, and I still can’t forget the terrible experience. Though the scar on my face is very vague now, the trauma seems to be permanent in my life.

I dreamed that he threw me into a pool that is full of shattered glass which are slashing my ligament, and thrusting into my bone. Therefore, I am not able to walk again. Screaming and yelling seem to be helpless while I am still in my nightmare. Probably, I need to have some mental treatment now. Am I really under a lot of pressure? I can feel a sense of anxiety is stuck into my heart.